Book Review: Spiral by Mila Ferrera

PPFF Rating: 5/5 Stars
Unexpected. Insightful. Appropriate. Brilliant.

goodreads blurb:

Nessa Cavanaugh, psychology student, knows how to stay on an even keel. Despite the urging of her mother and her academic advisor to get a life and have some fun, “all work and no play” sums up her plan to survive her grueling internship year at a children’s hospital. She doesn’t want to end up like her father, whose constant ups and downs broke her family, and avoiding unnecessary emotional entanglements is a must.

Then she (literally) runs into Dr. Aron Lindstrom in the middle of her disastrous first day on the job. The attraction is instant—and terrifying. Nessa knows she should stay away—especially when she finds out he has a reputation for being a player—but Aron is brilliant, intense, and as sexy as they come. When he challenges her to take a chance on him, her plans to stay focused on work start to crumble.

But what begins as passion takes on a dangerous edge, becoming an emotional roller coaster that’s frighteningly familiar. As things spiral out of control, Nessa must decide whether she should hold on for the ride or run … even if it means leaving her heart behind.


“Always do the thing that scares you.”

OK, I totally did NOT expect that. I can’t even begin to imagine!

I’m pretty sure I was so looking forward to this being another intense love story about the typical brooding playboy and a girl who has trust issues. Oh boy, was I wrong. VERY wrong. True, it was intense but for a whole different reasons. Just when I started to really swoon, every gushy feeling I had just spiraled.

“It was amazing,” I blurt. “I haven’t enjoyed myself that much in a long time.”
“You poor thing. It sounds awful.”

Nessa Cavanaugh, the girl who needed to have a life, immediately felt attracted to Dr. Aron Lindstrom right from the first day of her internship at a children’s hospital. He was this amazing Viking of a guy (apparently, he’s from Sweden) whom she literally bumped into, spilled coffee all over him and smacked into his chest, leaving a lipstick mark in the process.

“Apparently he worked his way through the roster last semester and left a lot of broken hearts and bad feelings. Forget ‘gentlemanly fish’—this guy is a total shark!”

They started flirting with each other and after Nessa decided to finally throw caution to the wind, they started dating. Of course there were rumors of Aron’s past indiscretions circulating as well as Nessa’s unfortunate incident with a fellow intern. They were also both so busy with their respective careers that they barely had enough time together. But despite all those elements, they took their time in getting to know each other and still ended up falling madly in love.

“Listen, I understand the demands of your schedule better than most guys would, because I’m as busy as you are. But spending time with you makes me feel lighter, not heavier. More relaxed and less frantic. And I think it’s the same for you. So when you need chess, or turtles, or …” He leans forward, and I close my eyes as his warm lips touch mine.

Yet, it seems like as quickly as they fell in love, things went spiraling out of control just as fast. I swear I didn’t see it coming. I normally can anticipate twists but I don’t know why I was simply blindsided by Spiral.

“I know I’ll regret it if I leave.”

Nessa. She’s unbelievable. I honestly don’t know how I can cope with everything she’s been through. I probably would have lost my mind and maybe I would have also given up on Aron. But her? She NEVER did. Of course, it most likely helped that she was equipped with the knowledge and experience in dealing with Aron’s illness.

“I think he’s very much worth being a ‘we’ with.”

I just feel so affected after reading Spiral. I keep asking myself if I would have also stuck around had the love of my life been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. How could Nessa do it? After dealing with her own father’s “episodes”, how could she even deal with Aron being the same?

I was honestly devastated after reading their story. But at the same time, I felt like it was almost appropriate. Yes, it wasn’t what I had expected to happen especially to a seemingly perfect and brilliant doctor. But I loved how Aron eventually looked at things. He may have struggled accepting his fate but he was right when he told Nessa that he shouldn’t even be whining about his sorry state because at least he got to live while his young patients had slim chances of even beating Cancer.

“Can I answer your unspoken ‘what if,’ with ‘I’ll be there’? Would that be enough?”

In the end, love conquers all, I should say. I just hope that if it happens to me, I would have the strength to fight for what I want and what makes me happy, come what may.

Thank you Mila Ferrera for an amazing experience. I wouldn’t have enjoyed the book as much if it hadn’t been written beautifully (cute cover too). And from now on, I wouldn’t even try to use the word bipolar loosely.

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